I wish you were here

It’s been a while since I’ve wrote and I feel really bad for not writing and wishing you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. You were and always are in my thoughts. I still can’t believe you’re gone. I was going through work emails a couple days ago and I found a letter I wrote to a potential client, it was dated May 29th 2007. Seeing that date brought back many memories of that day and unfortunately that night. I can remember Carli and I took the dogs for a long walk after work, and when we got back, I called and wished you a happy birthday. You were just finishing some shopping and as we ended the call, you we’re getting into the cab. Little did I know 9 hours later I would receive a life changing call that I will never forget. Here it is 8 months after your tragic death and I find myself still asking why something like this happened. It is still so hard for me to imagine growing old without you in my life. We would always talk about the future while making memories. It seems as time goes on I miss you more and more and cry every time I read a new post to your website. So many people feel the loss of you and because of you, the same people have made many positive life changes. You have inspired so many people to live now and follow their dreams. We all feel your strength and only hope we can leave such a memorable impression on one another as you have on us. There is no way of measuring the loss our family feels or describe the emptiness in our hearts. I miss you so much and just wish there was something I could do to bring you back. Keep sending me your love, strength and courage… I need it

I Love and Miss you so MUCH,
Jen