Happy Thanksgiving

Daniel,

This is way overdue and I apologize for not writing to you sooner. Again, I have so many mixed emotions right now. I’m trying to focus on what I’ve learned from the past 6 months of my life. There are days I can’t even look at your website and if I do, I only take a quick glance before closing it. My heart breaks when I let myself dwell on what has happened. It is so weird, I can picture you so vividly as if you were sitting in front of me or if you were driving your new car. I know exactly how you would look driving it and the things you’d be saying…”Honey don’t sleep”. That was one of your famous lines to me letting me know you were going places and your dreams were coming true. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I’m really not looking forward to this Holiday season. I can’t imagine our family getting together with 2 of our members missing. Not one of us ever planned for what has happened to our family this year. I know I’ve already said this, but you would be thrilled out how much closer our family has become. What has happened has taught us all a very important lesson in that it’s ok to take a step back and realize the important things in life because you never know what tomorrow or 5 minutes from now will bring. I’ve been thinking the past few days what I’m thankful for this Thanksgiving, and there are many things I’m thankful for, but the one thing that stands out most is our family and the impact you have made on each one of us. You have made an everlasting impression on all of us and I thank you for that. I found a candle to bring to the cabin in light of you, Steve and Michael. It is perfect. It smells of cinnamon toast. When I saw that I knew it was the one. I can remember you and Steven when we were younger always eating cinnamon toast with hot coco for breakfast every morning. We will keep it lit during the Holiday. I know you and Steve will be with us and we will be thinking of you both. I’m sure we’ll be sharing past memories and watching videos of us growing up. And of course there will be a few card games. If you can, help me out so I can win the big pot of money:) I’m also bringing up your favorite game, Phase Ten, along with a new dominos game I just learned. The hard part about this is even with telling past memories and playing games, it’s not going to be the same without you and Steve. Keep sending us the strength to make it through another day. I know you will be with us and I wish you a very special Thanksgiving and know I will be thinking of you. I miss you more than words can say and love you with all of my heart.

Always,

Jen