Daniel,
When I posted the first message on this bog I was at a loss for words and almost had a sense of numbness. Well almost a month and a half later I feel more pain now than when I first heard the awful news. Now, the initial shock and numbness is wearing off and reality is starting to settle in. I find myself crying over memories we made and the next moment feeling very angry about memories that were yet to come. This was not part of our plan and the fact that this is so permanent is so devastating. I truly know what it feels like to have a broken heart. My chest physically hurts and I feel like the wind has been knocked out of me now since May 30. I know you are watching us right now and I hope you can see, feel and sense the love our family carries on. We all have this unspoken commitment to love one another now more then ever. You were always so proud of our family and all the accomplishments each of us made and whenever you had a chance you always made sure we knew just how proud you were of us. I can only hope I make our family feel as loved and perfect as you did. Since you’ve been gone people have come out of the woodwork with letters, phone calls, dropping by Market Optical and posting comments on your blog. I always knew you had a big heart, but I never knew how much you truly touched the people you met. No matter how long someone knew you, you made each person feel so loved, special and most of all wanted. You filled their hearts with compassion and gave them a reason to smile. You truly did make an everlasting impression on EVERY person you made contact with. It is such a comforting feeling to know that my cousin was loved by so many people. As the days go on I’m trying to figure out how my life will continue without you just a phone call away. I can so vividly see your facial expressions and hear your voice. The hard part about that is those are all part of our memories and the fact that I’ll never get to hug you and kiss you on the cheek again makes me feel so sad. I want you to know that I am going to do what ever it takes to keep your spirit alive and never will there be a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. You will always remain the life of my party and I want you to be there spirit celebrating with us. I’m sure you can feel all the love and support our family has received and I can’t say thank you enough to all the compassionate individuals who have shown their support. Brandi dreamt the other night that the two of you got to hang out and you told her that you loved the new place you now call home. I can only imagine what it’s like. I went to your condo for the first time since this has happened this past weekend and it looked so good. . It was really hard for me to go there and the first few minutes were very overwhelming, but as time went on I just sat and enjoyed one of your biggest accomplishments. The second bedroom looks so awesome with the new fancy futon you just bought and told me all about. You must have gotten your decorating skills from me when we lived together Daniel….I miss you more than words can say and I regret not letting you know how proud of you I am. You’ve accomplished more in your 27 years then most people do in a lifetime. I admire you for that and because of you I want to live each day to the fullest and let people know how much I love them and not just assume they already know. Thank you for always loving me. I am blessed to say you’re MY COUSIN. I love you.
Jennifer
skip to main |
skip to sidebar
For those of us blessed to have shared a moment or a lifetime with Daniel, no words can describe the void that has been left in the wake of his tragic death. This site is to honor and remember Daniel's life and find comfort in the memories he left behind...a forum for people who knew Daniel to share their memories, pictures or reflections on times spent with him or for those who never knew Dan to post messages of hope, faith, healing and support.
How to Post to this Blog
Sign in (upper right hand corner) with Username rememberdan and Password danbaird then click on New Post.
His Legacy
Always the life of the party, Daniel lit of every room he entered with his infectious smile and palpable energy. People gravitated towards him. If you were his friend, you felt like you were his BEST friend. If you weren’t his friend, you wanted to be. He made every day feel like the best day of your life…and that’s the way he lived his.
Daniel honored and cherished his family and he hoped to one day have a family of his own. His mother was his Best Friend…it sounds so cliché, but he was the son that most mothers dream about and their relationship was unique and special. He wanted nothing more than to make her proud.
Daniel enjoyed traveling to new destinations and meeting new people. He had an abundance of friends, but was always looking to make more. He had a competitive spirit (hence his success in Sales) and loved playing board games and poker. Daniel was happiest surrounded by people, whether it was hosting a dinner party in his home or taking a road trip, going out dancing or staying in watching movies, shopping in the city or camping in the mountains. He made everything an adventure and left us all wanting to live fuller lives in his honor.
No comments:
Post a Comment